Wednesday, September 13, 2006


all that i am
all that i ever was
is here in your perfect eyes
they're all i can see
i dont know where
confused about how as well
i just know that these things
will never change for us at all


snow patrol - chasing cars

was nekkid @ 5:55 PM
Sunday, April 16, 2006


activities i am enthusiastic about:

(i) achieving THE insane pump
(ii) prospects of a fresh haircut
(iii) spa and vanity treatments
(iv) getting my measurements done
(v) retail
(vi) cheering kylie minogue on her recovery from breast cancer
(vii) justin timberlake's new album
(viii) making pointless lists like this. because i can

actually, im not entirely completely truthful about kylie and justin. and i dont need help. unless by "help", you mean funding.

was nekkid @ 2:52 PM
Friday, April 07, 2006


psychoanalysis guru sigmund freud theorised that all humour has to do with a sense of superiority. schadenfreude: the tendency to gain pleasure from another's misfortune. literally translated from german, it means "bad joy".

and of course, charles darwin's "survival of the fittest" theory implies that we might instinctively rejoice when one of our rivals falls off the evolutionary ladder.

hah.

was nekkid @ 4:03 AM
Tuesday, April 12, 2005


me:
i think ive a high cholestrol level. might get a cardiac arrest anytime soon.
dharma:
man, im so unfit last time i jerked off i thought i was about to have a heart attack.
me:
no kidding. whats your going rate?
dharma:
my body isnt for sale!
me:
everybody has a price.

was nekkid @ 12:42 AM
Wednesday, April 06, 2005


it is after much consideration that i am unveiling this. as of today, i shall gauge my future career success on the following:

(i) chronic lower back pain from one too many golf sessions
(ii) life-threatening tennis elbow from social meetings
(iii) pegged the 'oscar wilde' within the singapore tatler circle
(iv) guilt-ridden sleepless nights with my employer's (employers') youngest daughter
(v) an action figure in my likeness, who comes with his very own insecure but painfully hot special lady friend

all these by 30.

and for good measure:

(vi) mild infliction of hepatitis of any sort

was nekkid @ 3:53 AM
Friday, February 18, 2005


me:
why aint you in bed?
girl:
just chatting...
girl:
finger exercises...
girl:
on laptop........ 16 calories
girl:
in virgina....... 32 calories
me:
virgina? what the fuck is that?
girl:
what crap...
girl:
vagina...
me:
hahah! claire cant spell her own anatomy!

names have been edited to protect the identities of the parties involved in this online exchange.

was nekkid @ 2:14 AM
Thursday, February 17, 2005


after much intensive and gruelling research at my far-flung european laboratory, i am pleased to bring forth my findings, accuracy backed by my expertise in this field of practice and scientifically tested on numerous small mammals. this is one for the medical journal.

removing her clothes:
with her consent....................... 12 calories
without her consent.................... 387 calories

opening her bra:
with both hands........................ 8 calories
with one hand.......................... 22 calories
with your teeth........................ 85 calories

putting on a condom:
with an erection....................... 6 calories
without an erection.................... 315 calories

preliminaries:
trying to find the clitoris............ 8 calories
trying to find the g-spot.............. 192 calories

positions:
missionary............................. 112 calories
69 lying down.......................... 178 calories
69 standing up......................... 312 calories
wheelbarrow............................ 386 calories
doggy style............................ 400 calories
italian chandelier..................... 972 calories

orgasming:
real................................... 112 calories
fake................................... 315 calories

post orgasm:
lying in bed hugging................... 18 calories
getting up immediately................. 36 calories
explaining why you got out of bed immediately...... 816 calories

getting a second erection:
if you are:
20-29 years old........................ 36 calories
30-39 years............................ 80 calories
40-49 years............................ 124 calories
50-59 years............................ 972 calories
60-69 years............................ 2916 calories
70 and over............................ results are still pending

dressing up afterwards:
calmly................................. 32 calories
in a hurry............................. 98 calories
with her father knocking at the door... 1218 calories
with your wife knocking at the door.... 3521 calories

was nekkid @ 9:06 PM
Saturday, October 23, 2004


i dont know where to start without being overly bias or extremely opinionated. i would prefer to think im not one to inhibit impartial judgement but of late, participating merely as a bystander, i am convinced and have been practising some unfair inclination.

excuse my french but some people are so fucking stupid, it straddles the lines of being criminal. the jury has spoken. their penalty is a lifetime of self inflicted depression and hurt. the only way anyone can hurt you is when you allow them to. perpetual intensive couselling eats away at patience and sympathy. fade out objurgation. insert repugance, anathematisation and mental rehearsals of murder. then again, that would probably be doing them a favour. replace murder with object of ridicule. eventually, friends distant and they further lose themselves wallowing in self-pity, pathetic leeching and finger pointing. they are the source of their own misery. slapping them any harder is no longer funny.

me anesthetised or neglectful? perhaps but not entirely invalidated. brutual honesty will do them some good. stop contaminating our gene pool.

i have changed my mind. shoot them. in the ass. not across the cheeks. in the ass.

was nekkid @ 1:58 AM
Wednesday, October 06, 2004


time will heal all wounds.

i guess to a certain extent it does. from previous experiences, time sedates and clouds even the most active of minds. i reckon its accurate to say it doesnt exactly make you feel any better about things. but perhaps, details become vague and you cant seem to grasp onto the slipping ends of details. no matter how desperately and morbidly much you might want to retain it. psych majors out there, please dissect at your own discretion. time and wounds. its only a matter of time. im hoping. really hard.

then what i need but did not get for this years birthday, is a time machine. how not to get hurt. this one is to anyone who needs it. though i suspect everyone.

(i) kill yourself. it is suppose to hurt only till you pass out. destroy. crush out. stomp out. obliterate annihilate pulverise every inch every single living organism cell dna strain nerve endings entire genetic setup.

(ii) kill off any form of social ties. then if you do get crossed over, you can only blame yourself for it. and proceed to inflict vengence with glee and convenience. the law isnt big on assault. but the last time i checked it isnt exactly criminal to multilate oneself.

(iii) if all else fails, be an asshole and rejoice in others misery. if you cant beat them join them.

chill out, im half kidding about the last one.

was nekkid @ 11:11 AM
Tuesday, October 05, 2004


i have always dream of being in these 4 occupations. better yet if at the same time.

(i) airline pilot
(ii) plastic surgeon
(iii) shallow overachieving megalomaniac of a fashion powerhouse
(iv) investment banker

its official. choices (i) and (ii) are out. at least i still have half of them to go. or i can always pretend to dream of more, throw them in and have a better ratio.

i just like to smile alot, shake lots of hands... or whatnots. and somewhere along the way, take everybodys money. it will splendid if its also legal, disease-free and clean money.

at least im honest about it.

was nekkid @ 12:03 AM
Tuesday, September 28, 2004


"everyone wants passion in a relationship. whether it manifests itself in fucking or fighting, isn't passion what it's all about? doesn't everyone secretly desire a love so grandiose and overwhelming so as to obliterate their life and their rationality?"

amen.

was nekkid @ 1:28 AM
Monday, August 23, 2004


playing professional soccer in singapore.

"theres no such thing! its a joke!"

i believe the local soccer team will never ever make it even into the para-olympics. then again, we just might. after an earthquake along the equator relocates us to japan.

berkowitz says:
i hate footballers.
dharma says:
yeah me too. soccer players, i mean. soccer players are mad pussies.
berkowitz says:
wait, why do u hate them?
dharma says:
except pele. but all the rest are pussies. especially beckham.
berkowitz says:
i think footballers are generally lowly-educated fucks who kick an orange.
dharma says:
lol
berkowitz says:
who then decide to graduate (only time the word can be use) to kicking a larger ball.
dharma says:
im quoting you on this.
berkowitz says:
ill kick their fucking nuts.

was nekkid @ 9:13 PM
Wednesday, June 30, 2004


have you ever been in love? horrible, isnt it? it makes you so vulnerable. it opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. you build up all these defenses. you build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...

you give them a piece of you. they dont ask for it. they do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isnt your own anymore. love takes hostages. it gets inside you. it eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like 'maybe we should just be friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart.

it hurts. not just in the imagination. not just in the mind. its a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. but do i hate love? never.


how apt. and i bestow credit upon april for pointing this passage out to me. although it will be really nice to know its source.

was nekkid @ 1:09 AM
Monday, May 31, 2004


eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

it is all true. indeed, charlie kaufman has a remarkable gift in taking ordinary subject matter, in this case, a simple love story and transforming it into something completely unique, occasionally weird but yet always fascinating. i slouched through the first 20 minutes of the film but as the story unfolds itself, i found myself sitting up, enthralled, in awe and anticipating each following scene with bated breath.

how can i forget the beach house scene. it was a distinctive and heartbreaking flash of visual brilliance. never before have i heard so much sniffles during a screening. fascinated by the effect of the film on the audience, i found myself juggling my senses between the screen and the commotion around me. as joel races around in his subconscious, grasping at straws and trying to keep clementine in his head and as he fought so hard, in deseperation, to retain the last remaining strips of memory from the beach house, i too was overwhelmed. i was this close to sniffling.

joel: "ok!"
a love affair, even if it turns out to be a painful one, can never really be completely obliterated.

dharma: "that's deep..."
damn right it is.

i have no qualms about watching it a second time. or a third. if you have yet to see it, go catch it. if you aint overwhelmed by it, you must be (i) lying (ii) dead (which brings me to my next axiom) (iii) fucking jaded and the perfect poster-person for suicide.

was nekkid @ 1:41 AM